huRt...

A few hour ago...i saw something that make me feel sad n frustrated....i really don understand wat had i done to deserve all this pain...i feel tat i nt really exist at all..izzit i did something tat make u all nt happy or wat!!!i don understand...am i ur fren???i keep asking myself...will a fren betray or hurt u??i always look further n nt to look back...hw u all tease me , hw u all hate me , i really don care about it...bt at least nt be two faces person...make me feel sick...if u all really don like me , den y u all fren wth me???u all can jst tink tat i m nt really exist...if u all really wan fren wth me , den don ever talk or do something ugly to me...i have feeling..is really hurt...now...i really don knw who is my real fren...i don knw who i can talk to...everthing have change...my life worst than before...nt like the old time...everything have change...bt why me!!!if u all nt happy wth me , den jst say it out!!!don keep it...why u all keep it...bt i really did nothing wrong...i try nt talk much , coz i scare i accidently will hurt u all feeling...i try to keep a distance to u all , coz i scare my attitude will make u all feel nt happy...i try to keep quiet all the time , coz i don wan talk much...if nt maybe there will be something happen...all i try to do is to avoid some fight or hatred...bt u all don understand...u all will jst say that i m acting cool...bt is fine...i m ok wth tat...i jst don understand why because of small matter we fight...izzit childish...come on man...i too tired to ply tat type of game...if don be fren , den jst DON...i m ok wth it...all the while i m alone...so if i don have fren...is ntg to me...