LIFE

i fEEl a bIt reLax now...coZ i alMost paY all mY huTang to them alrdy..fuuf..u knw how i find money these few days??i work like hell...i decide nt to choose my work..as long as i gt the money..thurday and friday i work as DISH WASHER...u knw hw hard izzit??after finnish work , i get RM22 for my 1 day salary..zz..tat time i tink...RM22 bt work like hell..izzit worth it??haiz..no choice...den saturday and sunday i work as waiter...herm..tis 1 nt my first time la..i use to it d...bt the most important ting is I GVE IT ALL ALRDY...

sMiLe?

hoW r U???
i'm fIne...
nO sad At all...
plS doN wori...
is Tat too fake for me???
no matter how hard will be for me...
i jst have to smile???

nO hoPe...jsT gO..

u knW wat...
i reaLI realI hate u....
why...
i always nid to cry bcoz of u...
nid to sad bcoz of u..
nid to worry bcoz of u...
y cant it change????
y cant u worry me for a SECONDS...
tat enough for me u knw...
u don even care abt me...
yet..i'm so naif to believe u tat u will change...
bt all end up wif same ting..
is tis call change for u???
i telling myself tis will be last time i cry 4 u...
i feel ashame of myself u knw...
i hate crying...
coz make me feel sucks...
bt i cant control u knw...
jst get lost frm life pls...
all the while i tot i'm the 1 who gt problem between our relationship..
bt it's nt...
after we break for a week...
den we bek together again...
i tink twice...
am i wrong??
now....
i feel no feeling at all to you...
just gve me few minutes to tel u....
we just END our relationship ba...

NO.....

haIz..
SomEtimEs i RealI waNt tO kNw waT aM i dOin aLL tHe timE..
i dOn knW waT am I tInkiNg..
iS nT a fUnny tIng u Knw...
i haTe tiS typE oF feeLing..
i Don knw i'm wrOnG o nOt...
or mAybe YES..
Or mAybE nO...
i jSt hoPe is NO...
i trYing mY bESt alL tHE tImE...
jSt u dIn gVe mE AnY reSpoNs...
i HATE U..fOr GIviNg me tIs tYpE oF liFe..
aNd i'm BlEedINg...