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LOL...i'm so fucking excited about the up coming badminton tournament. Novice cup. So excited. Still got two weeks to go. Can't wait!!!!!!!! Target men single and double CHAMP. Yahoo. Here i come!!!!!!

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Just now saw you at MP working as a part-time promoter . Feel like wanted to say hi to you, but i scared. It's okay, at least i got the chance to see you.

Thanks God.

Bruno Mars - Grenade [Official Music Video]

The song is about loving someone so deeply, and the pain of knowing that the person you love does not feel the same.

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I just not good enough compare with other classmate.

Really disappointed with my current result.

I really study hard for my mid-term.

And i still can't get the highest.

But my friend did.

Sigh.

Pressure rising.

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Sometime i feel everyone in this world are so childish. No human sense at all. No study. No moral value. Because of these childish people , i feel tired of everything. They only know how to complain and blame on people when there is some problems. Blame people for what?? will it solve your fucking problem. such an idiot. Lucky i'm patient enough to play with your fucking pattern. If not , i'm afraid you will be slap by me.

Not only that. sigh. i thought when everyone turn to 18 , they will mature enough to think. But i was wrong. They not even mature to think and still act like primary school student. Even a small issue , want to argue. Please God help them. I can't stand anymore!!!!!!!!!!

One word to describe today..

UNBELIEVABLE

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Laying alone in the middle of the night is kinda boring actually..But when come to boring this word, it really make think a lot..As usual, thinking about what are you doing, how are you and i hope everything is fine..Let me think, i think is been a while that we contact each other..Every times i wanted to find you but somethings was pulling me off..Tell me to make a stop or else i will be like a fool..i was laughing at that time because i am already a fool so why don't just continue to be a fool..Maybe not everyone know about how it's feel when you deeply fall in love to someone because in this world i believe there no more real love or we say pure love..there are only fake love..haha..that just my opinion..no offence..but i think going to be a year..time don't wait for us i think..But is kinda fun when you have someone that are so important in life your to care for..haha..For now i just need to concentrate on what i have to do..(is a part of story written by me)..Not really a story..just want to talk to myself..so write all these rubbish..haha..is hard to find someone to talk to now these day...everyone are busy..some lost contact..haha..but lucky i still got my blog to talk to...zzzz...i'm insane..

LOL...when i start to write story(not a story just a piece of trash)...haha..i also don't know..Maybe i trying to improve my English if not i really left out..When i start to compete with each other?? haha.. i also don't know..

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I can't stand the pain

I can't make it go away

I can't stand the pressure

I'm sick of my life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me...

What i wish just for a normal life.

Can i have it?

regret

this is my biggest fail in my life....

5 gud vs 5 bad

5 reason that make me not to study

1. i lazy
2. don have the mood to study
3. everytime say later oni study
4. everday badminton and sleep
5. don like those subject(math and account)

5 reason that make me study

1. people look down at me
2. i study for my own sake
3. i study because i'm the one who pay the fees
4. no certificate no job
5. no job no money

stUdY??

Student=study??? agree?? i tink i nid to agree although i hate books...people said , no education no future...i have to agree too..coz now...we reali nid tat stupid damn certificate to get a job...in another word is degree...at least a degree to get a job...but me...i reali do nothing...now my result become more worst than during the secondary time...lol...my dad paid for me to study..but i sleep inside the class...BAD HABIT...now...final exam is around the corner...but i haven prepare yet..FUCK...my buisness math..gone...account...gone...eccon...still alive...i tink is time to study...game time is over..sleeping time is over...concentrate EUGENE...PAY ATTENTION!!!!!

moNEy!!! i nEeD u!!!!!!!

moneY moneY moneY moneY monEy moNey AND monEy....

whR the heLL aRe U!!!!!

i rEali neeD u..

cOz i waN tO buY mY tIng..

eSpecially a NeW gUItar...lol...

cUm herE faSt...

i'm waIting fOr u!!!!

dYinG vEri faST!!!!

LOL...MId-tErm coming...How...i'm Scare lea...tat Day b.Math quIz...jSt 4 Question , n i Take 1 hour tO coMplete it...BUT...mOst of thE quesTion aNswer i cOpy fRm my Fren De...cOZ...i dON knW hoW to Do aT aLL!!!!!i Jst oNI kNw tO do 1 qUestIOn nia...i gOIn 2 b cRazy...i niD caTch up My maTH..iF nt , i GOin tO faIl mY MaTH!!!!!!!!!

excepT mE...

uNI lIFE....vERi tOrturIng...

aNd VerI tIred tOO...

nOt biAsa wIf iT...

dURing oUr engLIsh clAz...

i daMn pRessure lo...

cOz moSt oF theM r bEtter dEn me...

the iMportAnt tiNg iS thY all sCore Gud rEsult in thr SPM...

eXcept mE....

LIFE

i fEEl a bIt reLax now...coZ i alMost paY all mY huTang to them alrdy..fuuf..u knw how i find money these few days??i work like hell...i decide nt to choose my work..as long as i gt the money..thurday and friday i work as DISH WASHER...u knw hw hard izzit??after finnish work , i get RM22 for my 1 day salary..zz..tat time i tink...RM22 bt work like hell..izzit worth it??haiz..no choice...den saturday and sunday i work as waiter...herm..tis 1 nt my first time la..i use to it d...bt the most important ting is I GVE IT ALL ALRDY...

sMiLe?

hoW r U???
i'm fIne...
nO sad At all...
plS doN wori...
is Tat too fake for me???
no matter how hard will be for me...
i jst have to smile???

nO hoPe...jsT gO..

u knW wat...
i reaLI realI hate u....
why...
i always nid to cry bcoz of u...
nid to sad bcoz of u..
nid to worry bcoz of u...
y cant it change????
y cant u worry me for a SECONDS...
tat enough for me u knw...
u don even care abt me...
yet..i'm so naif to believe u tat u will change...
bt all end up wif same ting..
is tis call change for u???
i telling myself tis will be last time i cry 4 u...
i feel ashame of myself u knw...
i hate crying...
coz make me feel sucks...
bt i cant control u knw...
jst get lost frm life pls...
all the while i tot i'm the 1 who gt problem between our relationship..
bt it's nt...
after we break for a week...
den we bek together again...
i tink twice...
am i wrong??
now....
i feel no feeling at all to you...
just gve me few minutes to tel u....
we just END our relationship ba...

NO.....

haIz..
SomEtimEs i RealI waNt tO kNw waT aM i dOin aLL tHe timE..
i dOn knW waT am I tInkiNg..
iS nT a fUnny tIng u Knw...
i haTe tiS typE oF feeLing..
i Don knw i'm wrOnG o nOt...
or mAybe YES..
Or mAybE nO...
i jSt hoPe is NO...
i trYing mY bESt alL tHE tImE...
jSt u dIn gVe mE AnY reSpoNs...
i HATE U..fOr GIviNg me tIs tYpE oF liFe..
aNd i'm BlEedINg...

aGain...

LOL...

tMrW...

gOiN bEk...

lAsT updAte...

dIeYinG hEart..

i RealI cAnt bEliEVe u Reali saY it oUt...u KNw taT reAli hUrt...aM i sElfiSh??i tiNk nOpe..coZ i trEat u reAli gOOd..bt waT aBt u??trEat me LIke a rUbbiSh..zzz...sO u don bE saD iF i saY sumTing tAt huRt uR fEEling..

chAnginG...

wow..veri long i din touch my blog d...coz i m in ns 4 three months...bt nw i m having a five days holidays..so i mst take tis opportunity to sy wat i wan to sy...

i been thr alrdy 1 month plus i tink...i meet a lot of fren frm a lot of places...some frm kl , some frm sabah , sarawak , johor , seremban n many more la...the most important ting is i feel in tis world , out thr , there r still have many ting waiting 4 us...

bt nw..i feel every1 beside me is changing...some alrdy gt bf or gf...some goin overseas stdy...some start to enjoy their life..wow...i feel i a bit behind...coz every1 r heading towards their dreams..making their dreams cum true...bt me...i still clueless...i have no dream...zzz...

all the best my frens...

gOIn Ns tIs tUesDay...
fUUf..
miZ eVeRyone...
bT i WiLL bE bEcK..

haIz....
feeL mOOdy tHese FeW dAy...
dOn knW wAt haPPen tO me..
i tRy tO cAlm dOwn..
Bt jsT cAnt Do iT...
jSt hOpe tMrw WilL b beTTer fOr mE...

tHx , bt sHe??

result???
nt tat gud...
gt a bit disappoint wif myself coz i cant achieve wat i wan..
bt nvm...
i told myself...i alrdy did my best...
i wonder hw was her result??
zzz....
scare to ask...
nvm..
now heading toward to my new goal..

rEsuLt.

fuuf...
result cuming out...
a bit scare n wori too..
wori my result n my future...zzz
jst hope God will be my side...
and all the best...

SoMetImes i fEEl tWo iS bEtTer ThAn OnE..

lIfE tImE

iT's tIme tO ReSt......

mY stOry????mY liFE???

thr is a boy..he's nt veri tall , nt veri fat , nt tat clever in studies , bt he has a pure heart tat care abt fren...1 day , he find out tat the gal tat he love , is oso love by his best fren...so he feel confused n don knw wat to do...den he decide to gve up..n wish the gal wth his best fren cn have a hapi life...bt the boy waitting 4 the chance...Thx God...finally the boy had the chance to love her...bt the boy nw is ardy with another gal..hw...tat time the boy tink , izzit God plying wth me...so the boy jst don care abt evryting..continue to move on..bt after a few month , the boy has alrdy break wth the gal he with...nt bcoz of the gal tat he love in the past..is bcoz the boy is tired of everyting..these few month , the boy jst like living in the HELL...bt he finally out frm hell...Thx God...bt those day the boy with his ex...he still gt contact wth the gal he love in the past...jst seldom...coz the gal bz working...she nid to work frm morning till nite 10pm...so thy have less time to contact each other...the worst ting is thy nt even same sch...thy oni cn meet during tuition...so 1 week oni cn meet once...so the boy always appreciate the time he cn c her...bt the gal don knw the boy love her...she jst treat the boy as her fren...bt the boy din sy much...the boy will miss tat gal veri much..coz he's goin to camp for three months..veri long time...bt the boy always tink , he n the gal wont get together coz he feel whn he told tat gal , tat he love her...the gal will feel shock...n the gal will sy ''r u kidding??''...so the boy untill nw stil haven told the gal...coz he tink mayb nt the rite time...bt he jst sy oni..his heart still tinking , will the gal like him??will the gal accept him??..he cant stop tinking...he wori abt those 3 months ,he spend at camp , will tat gal accept other guy...bt the time is running out 4 the boy...i jst hope the gal 1 day will knw tat the boy is waiting 4 her....

.....

i jst feel every1 in tis world have their own limit...
bt i don have...
i tink i 'm too gud...
i cn help some1 , bt don care abt myself...
wat is tat mean???
izzit i care abt thm??
i still don understand someting...
y in tis world , ppl don knw hw to appreciate wat thy have??
whn thy lose thm , thy oni knw thy reali nid thm...
y izzit so funny..
y the boy love the gal , bt he cant tell the gal , he love her??
izzit the gal too cold...
izzit the boy wan to continue the relationship as fren??
don wan ruin his relationship wth tat gal...
funny...
bt i jst nw , i enjoying myself...

aT LaSt..

nOW 3.25am....
stArT tO rAiN d...
tHx God..
at LaSt i feeL a Bit ReLax...
cOz NoW cN hEaR tHe RaIn drOp FrOm tHe SkY...
aNd i cN fEEl thE cOlD...
sUrE nIcE To SleeP..
i woNdEr hoW lOnG Cn iT lAst fOR...
hOpE i Cn hAve a gUd nIte SlEEp...

==...

today after work , i went to have some drink with my lady boss...
i ask her...
Am i friendly??
Am i look fierce??
Am i look crazy sumtimes??
Am i Stupid ??
Am i lazy ??
Am i useless???
DEn...
She answer me..
Do u have any problem???
hahaha...
i laugh like mad...
coz...
i Knw she will ask tat...
bt...
she sy...
1.i nt friendly at all
2.i look veri fierce , don like to smile
3.nt sumtime crazy....is always...
4.ya...veri stupid...
5......veri useless...
den..
i told her...
if like tat den i tink u the oni stupid boss who will employ me tis type of worker oni...
hahahaha...
she ntg to sy....

Rain PLS.....

zzzzzzzzz....
so hot...
hot until i nose bleeding...
zzzz...
fever lagi....
damn HENG.....
lose money still nid to sick....
zzz...
nid take flower bath d...
wash all the bad ting away....
aND...
PLS RAIN....
iF nT i WiLL dIE....

bAd nEws aNd GuD nEwS...

>.<........today i gt two ting to say...

1...today i lose RM350++...in gambling...so damn ''lucky''....jst 30minutes oni..i lose so much..zzz...

2...it doesn't matter anymore...i have to continue my life...i wont disturb u anymore...we jst end here...i believe nw i much happier den before...i no nid sad or wat...U STILL TREAT ME COLD , never change...bt fine 4 me...coz...i feel ntg anymore...mean I'm out of HELL....^^

ok...everyting settle...^^v..

dIeYinG...

zzzzzzzzz....
i tink nw my body is very weak...
coz everyday i jst slp 3 hours...
den i spend most of my time doing my own ting..
work , work , work...
nt oni tat...
nw i start to drink beer...
bt din mabuk la..
1 day jst eat 2 times..
dinner n surper...
den din exersice...
nw i veri fat d...
evrytime i went to work , i sure will drink a cup of coffee..
1 day at least 3 cup...
tat y my face go do facial oso the same...
den i eat a lot of panadol coz headache...
drink less water..
drink too much soft drink..
nw i tink i have to control everyting d...
if nt i will die faster...

i jSt wOnDeR..

i jst wonder , i still gt how long to live in tis world??
i jst wonder , whn i go tat day , whr will i be buried??
i jst wonder , if i kill someone , wat will happen to me??
i jst wonder , if i have a lot of money , whr i will be spend on??
i jst wonder , how long can i stand with the pressure i carry??
i jst wonder , can i be a vampire??
i jst wonder , am i a perfect guy ??
i jst wonder , y so many ppl scare n hate me??
i jst wonder , y some ppl treat me so gud??
i jst wonder , wat course should i take after i getting my result??
i jst wonder , how many A's i can score 4 my spm exam??


i jst wonder.......

cAn'T bEliEvE iT...

wow..
i alrdy find her bek...
i cant believe i can do tat..
coz i feel scare to find her..
thx God..
she reply..
nw mayb we jst a fren..
bt we nid time to knw each other more..
jst don look bek to the past..
tdy wat a shock..
u tell me , u feel sori to me..
i jst wan sy..
no..is me to u..nt u to me..
mayb i don knw y u will feel sori to me... .
n i feel sori to u too..
coz i nt tat understand u...
i have to admit i reali feel regret to break with u..
coz my tinking was always negative..
at last don knw who rite ,who wrong..
bt i jst wan u knw i reali love u..
those day we din contact each other ,
i reali feel someting is missing in my life...
i jst don have the chance to tell u tat i reali miss u..n i reali love u..
nw we contact wth each other again..
i will appreciate these day i spend wth u..
coz thr is no guarantee i will together wth u again..
mayb u will find another better guy..
who knw..
i knw we always sms..
no time to meet n spend some time together...
coz u tis yar STPM..
n me working...
no time n no chance to meet...
bt..
I JST HOPE U CN GVE ME SECOND CHANCE..

zzz.

very tired tdy..nid to face a lot of ting in 1 day reali make me feel suck...u knw wat..(mayb u don knw)sometime i slp , whn i dream of u , i feel very hurt..everytime i tink of u , i feel wan to find u bek..bt i don knw wat to do...y cant i jst fast recover n forget everyting..den everyting will b fine..izzit reali nid time to recover??or i jst cant let go??everyday i seeking 4 answer..bt i cant find it...can i transfer my memory to other person??can i b some1 tat have no wori , no saddess , no burden , jst normal human n live wth happy life??

selling credit card??suck reali..i going to resign..altough i m helping my fren , bt reali suck..1 day cant sell a piece..zzz...tired..slp..

waT iS fReN??

FreN??i DoN KnW wHicH 1 iS mY rEAL fRen aCtuaLi..i Gt tWo tYpE oF FreN..fiRsT tYpE is liKe tO teAsE ppL..sEcOnd typE is tHoSe whO doN sPeak mUcH bT haVe a gUd tInKing..sO wHcH 1 iS ReaL fREn??i fEEl fUnny La sOmeTimE..iF i diN iNviTe ThM gO aNywHr , dEn tHy coMplAIn i Din InViTe thm..bT tHE prObLem iS oUr tImE nT sUitAblE at All..caNt u All uNdErstand..i HaVe mY oWn lIfE nW..i HaVE tHe chOiCe wHo i wAn to Mix wth..i Din miX wTh u aLL , iT dOesN't mEan i fOrgET u All or otHer ReaSon..I hAvE mY oWn ChOicEs...Bt aT leAsT nW , i kNw wHo aM i And WHo R u..hOPe u AlL unDersTand..if u All wANt tO tiNK baD aBt mE , uP tO U..i sPeaCeleSS nW..

cRaZY...

i'm reali damn crazy...coz i one day watch 3 movie at dp cinema...zzz...i spend total RM40...jst like tat alrdy gone...zz..my mum sy i sot d...haha..reali lo...wan to rest...after the first movie , i went to buy some cloth coz i haven buy any cloth 4 tis cny...zzz..bt at last no buy..coz no ppl comment n i don knw nice o nt..haha..den after the second movie , i went to have my dinner at MD...haha..bt the service reali damn lousy lo..zzz...after tat continue nxt movie...time past veri fast..nw alrdy 12.30 am...wan go eat surper...bt veri tired , so go bek lo..

C nEw Yar cOmiNg...

Chinese New Yar coming...bt i cant go bek to tamPIn...i nid to stay at melaka alone...shit!!!coz nid to work...no off day...i oni off after Chinese New yaR...zzz...reAli haTe lo...bt No cHOice...hehe...my salary DouBble...wow...nice...den nxt money gt money to use d...haha..bt still veri long..==..

tIs CaN deScRiBe hAlf HoW i FeeL..bT nT aLL..

dream...n lol...

herm...i going to be a part time nurse...bt..cant do long...==...coz march i going to PLKN...suck...so don knw wan to do o nt...bt if i work thr , i will learn many ting..coz tat clinic is a specialist clinic..so i cn learn a lot of ting thr..n i wan work...i wan to use up all my time..bt tat stupid PLKN make me cnt work...zzz..sad..if i work thr , i will apply 4 being a helper n cn travel...so damn fun...n oso help ppl...haha..i oni cn dream...no choice..herm...i oso plan wan to take some course on baking...so i cn bake n cn do some business...make money..$$$$$$$$$...nw everyting r money...n money...no money no talk...haha...bt reali tired...nw i writing tis blog is 5am morning...every1 slping except me...doing my research on management...haha...coz mayb i going to stdy management...depend on result...if gud..i tink i will change my mind...i will take medic course...bt reali to get it...coz i nt tat clever...i'm a bit dumb...haha..

zzz...boss...these few days always kena fuck by boss...lol...fuck me gt reason nvm...bt no reason he fuk me...n always me kena...zzzz...nvm...nxt time i going to fuk bek...haha..n every1 will support me...coz no 1 like him at thr...sori 4 using rude word..haha...

wOw...

fUUf....tired wan to update my blog coz everyday reach home at 2am...bt tdy have to update..coz i knw some shocking news...haha...i veri long time din talk with my bro d coz we din meet at home...whn i reach home , he alrdy slp..whn he wake up , i still dreaming..bt tdy , i went to his room n take his handphone n c...wow!!!he gt gf d...haha...he big le...n i getting old le...n nxt day i going to tell my mom tat she no nid to wori tat she don hve grandson to carry le...haha..

i wAnna gO hOme..

i wanna go home..bt nt at Malacca...coz i wan to leave tis place 4 a while..bt my boss don let me off...zzzzzzz...and he nid ppl...haiz...reali f***...hope my boss cn let me off...i

laSt chAptER oF mY loVe LifE...

herm..don knw wat to sy..n don knw hw to describe my feeling nw...bt still have to write down at here..coz is part of my life..my relationship with the one i love has end...why??mayb thr's someting tat i cant accept n mayb i'm blind...or mayb i too stupid coz put too much feeling in tis relationship...at last i feel disappointed...yesterday , i msg her tell her how i felt...n told her tat u treat me veri cold...n din even care abt me..den she ask me bek , wat i want??i feel sad i heard tat..wat i want??i told her...u knw wat..i don wan anyting , i jst wan u...den she jst sy o!!n she sy she feel sad whn i told her tat she nt care abt...OMG...den i said wat abt me???i nt sad , i nt pain ...hw u treat me...i gt feeling k...tat time i feel sad..coz she din even tink hw i felt...later she told me i tink too much...haha..i tink nt lo...coz as a guy , whn u c ur gf bluffing u , nt care abt u , treat u veri cold , hw u feel?? i tink too much..haha..gud reason...at last she said '' ok lo..everyting i wrong n say everytime i tink too much , she veri rimas''...at last we break...i feel veri sad tat time..n i cry...lyk a cry baby...coz..i reali don wan to break..bt we cant force our self n i had to accept...the last msg i sent to her was ''i sy sori to her coz cant be her perfect bf n wish her cn find a bf tat better than me..n i told her , i love her''....

tis is the last chapter of my first relationship..n i reali cant let it go...

neW...

zzzz...
i finally change my hair style...
herm...
bt i tink most of my fren cant accept it...
coz a bit weird....
haha...
nvm...
bt i lyk it...
hope my new hair style will change my life...
begin with new life n new hope...
HOpE...

loVe U alL..

wOw...tdy damn tiRed...bt nOrmAl..tDy i saw many my olD fRen...all have change a lot..some pretty , some handsome , some mature , n some 38...haha..bt i reali hapi..coz finally we cn meet again...n thx 4 u all advised...bt thr is 1 gal din turn up...herm..she's my kai jie jie...long time no c her d..miz her a lot...nvm..she bz..haha...bz dating...sori ar jie...u force me to write de..hehe...^^v ...Last...lOVe u alL..

aLL abT u N mE..

u oR mE...
i jSt waNt a NorMal lIfE..
nT a cOmpLicateD one..
bT u wANt..
u mAKe me CraZy eVeRyTimE..
i aLrDy tirEd of It...
thX..