bleeding....

hurt

pain

sad

lonely

hate

bt......

i have no choice...

don knw...

these few months i realize tat my relationship wth other alrdy had a gap between them...i cant fully believe them...n sometimes i really angry wth them...maybe there r someting happen between us n we don knw how to say it out...so we jst keep inside our heart...n i oso don knw whr did i wrong..or y i hate them so much...or someting.....so i really don knw to solve tis problem...

erm....

Yoo~

long time no updATE~

N a bIt QuieT here~

nEW LifE sTaRt ,

NEw gAmE coMe ,

onE wOrLd ,

tWo dReAm ,

nO wOrlD ,

nO DreAm ,

PeAceFul loVe ,

noIsy hAte ,

cRy StuPid ,

smiLe idIot ,

loNeLy hAppY ,

couPLe sUcKs.....

THX~

true?? or i m just cant accept it..

i always wonder what i really have in my life..but now i already found the answer....i have nothing..i m useless..ya.. i have to agree..sometimes my friends say ''i m good at nothing''...is true...i really good at nothing...all i only know is do nothing..i always scare one day maybe i will just kill myself and let go everything in my life...so i can live happily in the other world without any worry , pressure and sadness...i always worry about others but when i m worry about others some people will start to think that i m so busybody and like to show something...but i really don care what you think or talk about me..but please don let the whole world know i m the bad guy...coz i m innocent...and that your thinking...not others ..you all can hate me but i still have feeling...i don want bcoz of something that i did make you feel sick or what , please don say it out or do something that will hurt me or make me worry about myself....every night before i sleep i will always think back what i really had done to make someones hate me...i really have nothing to do with it...i m begging you all , please let me go...i m not that strong..although i can accept everything but doesn't mean that i cant be hurt...

when i was born i was very naive coz i still a baby...i don know everything...i thought that this world is full of beautiful colour and i also thought that if we want to success , the important thing is we must not give up easily and work hard for it..but now , i already know that i m wrong...coz every time i work so hard but i still also cant get what i want...not only that i also been look down by others people...i still remember one of my friend and my family told me that '' you cant do it and you have nothing..you also have to look at your own standard coz you are not good enough'' i really sad n i just keep quiet...i always wonder , is it true that i really cant do it...

SoRrY

you know wat..sometimes i oso hate myself 4 going something tat i hate but i have to do...coz i been force to do...i cant control myself...maybe tis oso part of my attitude or wat...coz sometimes when i get angry or mad , i wont think before i talk..n i have already hurt a lot ppl with my bad attitude..n now i really have to say ''i 'm sorry''.....

sAd , tiReD , cOnFusEd

sad?? i don wan to be sad....n always wan to be happy..bt i jst cant do it...i always don care about wat other people tink about me , say about me...bt nw i jst cant take it anymore...hahahaha...bt i still can pretend it tat i still veri happy...maybe tis way can make others nt worry about me..

tired??ya..damn tired...no time to rest...many homework , many ting to read , many ting to plan , many ting to worry....lol....nw life is like tis 1...so no choice...

confused??erm...ya damn confused...don knw wat others people think about me...n they just cant understand my feeling...they taught tat i m already dead...so they can say whatever they like....no choice...coz i m the special one...so tat y i m so famous...

camp.....

ONe niTe sTanD CaMp

DaTE: 6 jUnE 2009

VeNue: SMK tUN hAji AbDuL mAlek

TiMe: 7am-11pm

$$$$ : RM 10 - RM 20

OrGaNiZed bY : " ThE OnE ''

CluB : sCout , gAl gUiDe , PbSm , KaraTe-Do

AcTiviTieS

sEcTion 1

• MeNtoS
• BiNgO
• SBSS
• AlOnE In tHe DarK
• No cHanCE

SecTioN 2

• RuN fOR lIfE
• U cAn RuN BuT u CanT hIdE

SeCTiOn 3

• BBQ tImE
• dAnCe N SinG aLOnG
• U muSt sAy iT!!

My pRojEct 4 2009...Hope u all can gve some comment on my project..or gve some idea 4 my activities...Thx...