i always wonder what i really have in my life..but now i already found the answer....i have nothing..i m useless..ya.. i have to agree..sometimes my friends say ''i m good at nothing''...is true...i really good at nothing...all i only know is do nothing..i always scare one day maybe i will just kill myself and let go everything in my life...so i can live happily in the other world without any worry , pressure and sadness...i always worry about others but when i m worry about others some people will start to think that i m so busybody and like to show something...but i really don care what you think or talk about me..but please don let the whole world know i m the bad guy...coz i m innocent...and that your thinking...not others ..you all can hate me but i still have feeling...i don want bcoz of something that i did make you feel sick or what , please don say it out or do something that will hurt me or make me worry about myself....every night before i sleep i will always think back what i really had done to make someones hate me...i really have nothing to do with it...i m begging you all , please let me go...i m not that strong..although i can accept everything but doesn't mean that i cant be hurt...
when i was born i was very naive coz i still a baby...i don know everything...i thought that this world is full of beautiful colour and i also thought that if we want to success , the important thing is we must not give up easily and work hard for it..but now , i already know that i m wrong...coz every time i work so hard but i still also cant get what i want...not only that i also been look down by others people...i still remember one of my friend and my family told me that '' you cant do it and you have nothing..you also have to look at your own standard coz you are not good enough'' i really sad n i just keep quiet...i always wonder , is it true that i really cant do it...
my family....my dad , my mom , n my two brothers....