a bit tired..

After few month we together...i feel tired...coz every time we sms or chat...u treat me veri cold..i din do anyting wrong...y mst every time treat me lyk tat...u treat me few time , i ok... i din say anyting...everytime i wil try to avoid frm quarel or wat..thx GOD..i did it..bt pls i reali don wan end up our relationship lyk tat..if u nt hapi , u jst say...don wan keep it...coz i don knw wat happen...n important ting...i don knw wat r u tinking...i knw tat ur past , u was a ply gal...bt i don mind...coz i believe in u...bt i reali hope u don treat me lyk tat..coz i m ur bf..n if u don love me jst say , i m okay... bt i reali care 4 u...

nEw liFe..

tis article is special introduce to my fren...herm..my love 1...actuali i knw her quite sometime..bt we seldom talk..we oni talk through sms...she bigger den me..she tis year form six...bt i don care hw old she is..so after i settle myself n confirm tat i reali love her tat time..i oni express to her..bt first time i express to her through phone , she tot tat i was joking wth her...coz she cant believe tat i reali like her...haha..coz i din take any action...bt after few hour we talk on the phone...she finally say yes...den we jiu together d..bt at sch no 1 will believe tat i wth her..coz every1 stil tinking tat i still love the gal tat i fall in love for almost 3 years...bt slowly everything settle down...so tat hw we begin...

no TiTTLE..........

herm..long time no cum here n update my blog le...y??coz wan exam lo...damn busy..stdy stdy stdy oni...n most important ting is I OUT OF SHAPE ALRDY!!!!!OMG...nw veri fat le...T.T...hw...bt nvm..lucky my exam i cn do..EXCEPT for ADD MATH n AKAUN...ppl say damn easy..bt 4 me..haiz...no comment..haha..nvm...bt tis few week..i realize somting..tat is i tink too much...i don understand y bcoz of small matter , i can tink tat the world is going to end..izzit nt mature??ya..i tink so..my mei n my love 1 always sy tat i tink too much..haha...i tink is true ba..bt at least thy knw i reali care abt them...erm...k ba..until here...

izziT haRd??

hard or easy??

4 me is hard...

lol...

don knw why so hard...

it really piss me off...

arghhhh...

lOng tiMe nO sO eNjOy le...

Jan Shen , Ah yi n mE...y me always so ugly de...==

fuyoo..tis is JAY TAN... (singing de) ...... Yi...don EMO...haha

tdy quite happy...i went out frm my house at 9am...damn early...den went my fren house..after tat my mom fetch us to bus stop..==...y don wan straight away to mp leh...lol...nvm..den we sat bus lor..no choice...we reach melaka centre at 9.30am...den we go take our breakfast first coz damn hungry...we went to melaka cantre the chicken rice shop...eat lo...after tat we straight away to mp...den we walk to DP de dreambox...wah...u knw wat i saw...so many leng lui...haha...bt no choice...coz i too loyal the 1 i love...so jst c nia...bt my fren heart itchi..ask me to take number..lol..i say i don wan n nt brave enough...hahaha...den we went lor...==..we sang 4 three hours...wah..damn tired...i mean my throat...lol...one of my fren , name : Tan Silk Shen , he call himself ''JAY TAN"..haha...coz he oso a big fan of JAY CHOU...he steal ppl mike n don let other sing...lol...bt quite funny la...we sang mostly JAY song...still gt two more fren...1 is AH YI n another is JIAN SHEN(guai shu shu) hope din spell wrong his name...hahaha...all r nt same sch wth me..two of them r frm SFI n another 1 is frm MALIM SCH...

after 3 hours SS in the room , we wan to hve our lunch..bt one of my fren still full...so we don wan to eat...den we went to the last floor...erm...a lot game there..so we ply lor...haha..later my fren say wan go back d...so we accompany him untill the place whr he wait 4 is bro...after tat , we went 4 JT..we go there jst 2 ply game n jalan-jalan..haha...a while alrdy 6pm...lol...now damn hungry...so we went 4 dinner at A&W...jst two of us..ME n AH YI..haha...after tat hve to go home le..coz my fren gt tuition so no choice la..

hope nxt time can go again...n hope nxt time will be more different...

bCOz sMall MAttER fIgHT....

Fren...hahaha...fren...i have a fren...he's my first fren tat i veri close to since i transfer here..form 2 tat time , we always hang out together... we always share our secret...nt oni tat , if we have some problem we always try to solve it together..jst like brother..we always cycle together during tat time...coz he live in same taman wth me...tat time i fall in love wth a gal...i call her as"k"...tat gal was special to me tat time...so i decide to chase her..bt after few months , i oni found out tat , the gal oso is the 1 who my fren like...bt he din even angry or wat , when i tell him tat i like tat gal infront of him...he keep quiet..until tat day i knw...i oso feel sori 4 him..bt in the mean time, he fell in love wth another gal..i cal her as" Y "...so he tell me he like her...so as a fren..i decide to help him..hahaha...gt 1 time during PJ time , we ply football...den he fell down n broke his arm...tat time i try to help him...bt bcome lagi worst...den he went to hospital to do operation...tat time i feel a bit regret n sori 4 him..untill nw oso the same..

Den form 3..the second year i knw him...tat year we same class...we still the same...our relationship bcome better den b4...n he fell in wth tat gal nearly 1 year...bt still haven together..so i always try my best to help him...me oso the same...still haven be wth the gal i like..bt tat year isa our exam year...we had to take PMR..so everyting delay...

Den when come to form 4...everyting had change..it bcome more worst..we can say tat , we always fight..bcoz a bit of small matter den we fight...bt at last , we still back together...tat year our relationship become more n more worst...sometimes we fight are bcoz of gal...a bit jiu fight..nw tink back veri childish...

And now form 5 already...this was the forth year i knw him...tis year we having our veri last exam , tat is SPM...so we mst well prepare...tis 4 years i knw him , he make me change a lot...he always tease me my result nt gud...n always fail...so i geram...n he make me to study well in order make him nvr tease me anymore...i try veri hard...bt at last oso kena tease...so i put him as my rival in sch...hahaha...nt oni tat , tis year is his 17 birthday..so i decide to buy a watch 4 him...coz he don have watch..one oso don have...den gt 1 day , the gal tat she like sms me , ask me wat i buy for his buffday present...i say don knw yet..den she wan share wth me..so i say ok lo..gt 1 time , tat gal talk to me infront of me , he gt angry...after tuition he beat me...one time nia la...den he walk away...i was blur...n nvr tot tat he gt angry..bt when he found out tat is me n the gal talk is all abt his present , another day he say sori to me...bt i say is fine...den start frm tat day i nvr talk wth him abt gal...untill nw...den after few months , he found some1...den tat gal bcome her girlfriend...i was happy 4 him...so i n my fren always tease him "wah..gt gf wor.."haha..funny...den untill tis RAYA HOLIDAYS...one week holidays , so i ask wan go out mah ?? he say ok lo..bt he say he bring along wth his gf lo..so i tink n tink again...nt gud la..coz will b ppl big BULB...so i decide go wth my other fren lo..he say ok lo...den nxt 2 days , he ask me again , when i go out , i say on friday..wth my other sch fren...he say no ajak him.. den i say u go wth ur gf mah , tat day u say de...he straight away gt angry..tat time i so damn angry..i gt ajak him , den he say no...lol..den bcoz of small matter we fight...haiz....childish...1 of my fren ask me to back together...lol...i say i din do anyting wrong...y is me...lol...i gt ajak , say i no ajak...nvm...is fine...i tink 5 years frenship will end here ba...if back together again , i oso don knw when will fight again...tired...

huRt...

A few hour ago...i saw something that make me feel sad n frustrated....i really don understand wat had i done to deserve all this pain...i feel tat i nt really exist at all..izzit i did something tat make u all nt happy or wat!!!i don understand...am i ur fren???i keep asking myself...will a fren betray or hurt u??i always look further n nt to look back...hw u all tease me , hw u all hate me , i really don care about it...bt at least nt be two faces person...make me feel sick...if u all really don like me , den y u all fren wth me???u all can jst tink tat i m nt really exist...if u all really wan fren wth me , den don ever talk or do something ugly to me...i have feeling..is really hurt...now...i really don knw who is my real fren...i don knw who i can talk to...everthing have change...my life worst than before...nt like the old time...everything have change...bt why me!!!if u all nt happy wth me , den jst say it out!!!don keep it...why u all keep it...bt i really did nothing wrong...i try nt talk much , coz i scare i accidently will hurt u all feeling...i try to keep a distance to u all , coz i scare my attitude will make u all feel nt happy...i try to keep quiet all the time , coz i don wan talk much...if nt maybe there will be something happen...all i try to do is to avoid some fight or hatred...bt u all don understand...u all will jst say that i m acting cool...bt is fine...i m ok wth tat...i jst don understand why because of small matter we fight...izzit childish...come on man...i too tired to ply tat type of game...if don be fren , den jst DON...i m ok wth it...all the while i m alone...so if i don have fren...is ntg to me...