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GUess what. I did prepare for the Novice Cup and wanted to get CHAMP. who knows. Someone go report me , said that i'm district player. So someone called me and ask me to withdraw the competition. ==.. At last end up with nothing. Arggh.

So my next target for 2011 is MMU OPEN. This time no one can report me anymore coz there is no term and condition. District is allow to play. Work hard for it.

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LOL...i'm so fucking excited about the up coming badminton tournament. Novice cup. So excited. Still got two weeks to go. Can't wait!!!!!!!! Target men single and double CHAMP. Yahoo. Here i come!!!!!!

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Just now saw you at MP working as a part-time promoter . Feel like wanted to say hi to you, but i scared. It's okay, at least i got the chance to see you.

Thanks God.

Bruno Mars - Grenade [Official Music Video]

The song is about loving someone so deeply, and the pain of knowing that the person you love does not feel the same.

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I just not good enough compare with other classmate.

Really disappointed with my current result.

I really study hard for my mid-term.

And i still can't get the highest.

But my friend did.

Sigh.

Pressure rising.

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Sometime i feel everyone in this world are so childish. No human sense at all. No study. No moral value. Because of these childish people , i feel tired of everything. They only know how to complain and blame on people when there is some problems. Blame people for what?? will it solve your fucking problem. such an idiot. Lucky i'm patient enough to play with your fucking pattern. If not , i'm afraid you will be slap by me.

Not only that. sigh. i thought when everyone turn to 18 , they will mature enough to think. But i was wrong. They not even mature to think and still act like primary school student. Even a small issue , want to argue. Please God help them. I can't stand anymore!!!!!!!!!!

One word to describe today..

UNBELIEVABLE

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Laying alone in the middle of the night is kinda boring actually..But when come to boring this word, it really make think a lot..As usual, thinking about what are you doing, how are you and i hope everything is fine..Let me think, i think is been a while that we contact each other..Every times i wanted to find you but somethings was pulling me off..Tell me to make a stop or else i will be like a fool..i was laughing at that time because i am already a fool so why don't just continue to be a fool..Maybe not everyone know about how it's feel when you deeply fall in love to someone because in this world i believe there no more real love or we say pure love..there are only fake love..haha..that just my opinion..no offence..but i think going to be a year..time don't wait for us i think..But is kinda fun when you have someone that are so important in life your to care for..haha..For now i just need to concentrate on what i have to do..(is a part of story written by me)..Not really a story..just want to talk to myself..so write all these rubbish..haha..is hard to find someone to talk to now these day...everyone are busy..some lost contact..haha..but lucky i still got my blog to talk to...zzzz...i'm insane..

LOL...when i start to write story(not a story just a piece of trash)...haha..i also don't know..Maybe i trying to improve my English if not i really left out..When i start to compete with each other?? haha.. i also don't know..

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I can't stand the pain

I can't make it go away

I can't stand the pressure

I'm sick of my life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me...

What i wish just for a normal life.

Can i have it?

regret

this is my biggest fail in my life....

5 gud vs 5 bad

5 reason that make me not to study

1. i lazy
2. don have the mood to study
3. everytime say later oni study
4. everday badminton and sleep
5. don like those subject(math and account)

5 reason that make me study

1. people look down at me
2. i study for my own sake
3. i study because i'm the one who pay the fees
4. no certificate no job
5. no job no money

stUdY??

Student=study??? agree?? i tink i nid to agree although i hate books...people said , no education no future...i have to agree too..coz now...we reali nid tat stupid damn certificate to get a job...in another word is degree...at least a degree to get a job...but me...i reali do nothing...now my result become more worst than during the secondary time...lol...my dad paid for me to study..but i sleep inside the class...BAD HABIT...now...final exam is around the corner...but i haven prepare yet..FUCK...my buisness math..gone...account...gone...eccon...still alive...i tink is time to study...game time is over..sleeping time is over...concentrate EUGENE...PAY ATTENTION!!!!!

moNEy!!! i nEeD u!!!!!!!

moneY moneY moneY moneY monEy moNey AND monEy....

whR the heLL aRe U!!!!!

i rEali neeD u..

cOz i waN tO buY mY tIng..

eSpecially a NeW gUItar...lol...

cUm herE faSt...

i'm waIting fOr u!!!!

dYinG vEri faST!!!!

LOL...MId-tErm coming...How...i'm Scare lea...tat Day b.Math quIz...jSt 4 Question , n i Take 1 hour tO coMplete it...BUT...mOst of thE quesTion aNswer i cOpy fRm my Fren De...cOZ...i dON knW hoW to Do aT aLL!!!!!i Jst oNI kNw tO do 1 qUestIOn nia...i gOIn 2 b cRazy...i niD caTch up My maTH..iF nt , i GOin tO faIl mY MaTH!!!!!!!!!

excepT mE...

uNI lIFE....vERi tOrturIng...

aNd VerI tIred tOO...

nOt biAsa wIf iT...

dURing oUr engLIsh clAz...

i daMn pRessure lo...

cOz moSt oF theM r bEtter dEn me...

the iMportAnt tiNg iS thY all sCore Gud rEsult in thr SPM...

eXcept mE....

LIFE

i fEEl a bIt reLax now...coZ i alMost paY all mY huTang to them alrdy..fuuf..u knw how i find money these few days??i work like hell...i decide nt to choose my work..as long as i gt the money..thurday and friday i work as DISH WASHER...u knw hw hard izzit??after finnish work , i get RM22 for my 1 day salary..zz..tat time i tink...RM22 bt work like hell..izzit worth it??haiz..no choice...den saturday and sunday i work as waiter...herm..tis 1 nt my first time la..i use to it d...bt the most important ting is I GVE IT ALL ALRDY...

sMiLe?

hoW r U???
i'm fIne...
nO sad At all...
plS doN wori...
is Tat too fake for me???
no matter how hard will be for me...
i jst have to smile???

nO hoPe...jsT gO..

u knW wat...
i reaLI realI hate u....
why...
i always nid to cry bcoz of u...
nid to sad bcoz of u..
nid to worry bcoz of u...
y cant it change????
y cant u worry me for a SECONDS...
tat enough for me u knw...
u don even care abt me...
yet..i'm so naif to believe u tat u will change...
bt all end up wif same ting..
is tis call change for u???
i telling myself tis will be last time i cry 4 u...
i feel ashame of myself u knw...
i hate crying...
coz make me feel sucks...
bt i cant control u knw...
jst get lost frm life pls...
all the while i tot i'm the 1 who gt problem between our relationship..
bt it's nt...
after we break for a week...
den we bek together again...
i tink twice...
am i wrong??
now....
i feel no feeling at all to you...
just gve me few minutes to tel u....
we just END our relationship ba...

NO.....

haIz..
SomEtimEs i RealI waNt tO kNw waT aM i dOin aLL tHe timE..
i dOn knW waT am I tInkiNg..
iS nT a fUnny tIng u Knw...
i haTe tiS typE oF feeLing..
i Don knw i'm wrOnG o nOt...
or mAybe YES..
Or mAybE nO...
i jSt hoPe is NO...
i trYing mY bESt alL tHE tImE...
jSt u dIn gVe mE AnY reSpoNs...
i HATE U..fOr GIviNg me tIs tYpE oF liFe..
aNd i'm BlEedINg...

aGain...

LOL...

tMrW...

gOiN bEk...

lAsT updAte...